This is my 250th post and my due date. Are either of them really significant events? Well, yes and no. It is interesting to take note of a mile marker, but not necessarily the mark of the end or beginning of anything. You don't stop driving on a trip simply because you hit a mile marker that seems like you've been far enough- nor do you consider yourself very accomplished simply because you have reached a large number. I'm not sure that I have reached 250 significant, intelligent posts- or even 250 interesting posts. However, it is nice to look back and note that my posts have become more thoughtful and the random found poetry has become rather infrequent. More often it is my own thoughts (useless as some of them may be) and my own journey that is being recorded here.
I do have to wonder if there is a company that would print and bind all of a blog's posts, including pictures, for a reasonable fee. I have a feeling that there is not. Also, what would you consider your "last" post? It's like binding a journal or diary I suppose.
On the other topic, I'm noticing a few physical changes which I won't get into for the sake of the weirdness factor, but nothing that points to imminent labor. I've reread both of the books on the Bradley Method that I have. So far I'm not really noticing anything I've forgotten to do to prepare. I've been practicing my relaxation and trying to stretch. My bag is packed (probably needs to be repacked) and there is a car seat in the back of my car. All I'm missing now is Jonah.
However, I'm not in a hurry- okay, maybe a little last night, but for the most part I'm enjoying this time off of work and in my house. I'm getting a lot of things cleaned out and straightened up-- including my own head. There is a lot of change in store for us here in the Watson house in the next few months and I'm trying to focus on one thing at a time.
Besides, I'm feeling some anxiety about giving birth. I know that God made my body to do this and that my baby is very healthy and normal. (Up until the last appointment with my midwife I was right on every single "normal" size and growth marker.) However, the actual process of giving birth still seems like a very daunting task. Our Bradley class was great at preparing us for the process and reminding us what was normal and what was medically proven (versus what is medically recommended, sometimes for legal reasons) as well as what is helpful during the actual process. I think that the need for privacy and control of the environment to facilitate internal control of relaxation is the one thing that I'm the most nervous about at this point. When I am not feeling my best, I don't normally invite a bunch of people over just to visit, but it seems like everyone wants to know as soon as you go into labor so they can come to the hospital. I'm not really talking about family- mostly just overenthusiastic friends.
Can you tell I have a mostly one-track mind right now?
On other topics...
A movie preview I recently saw that I think I'd like to see:
Also, a neat recipe from Shelteriffic on Chicken and Pear Turnovers. I'd like to try it, but I don't really feel like getting my kitchen dirty. Maybe someone would try it out and let me know how it goes?
That's all I've got for now. I'll let you all know if anything changes.