I guess I'm just a big chicken. If I weren't a chicken I would have insisted on making her first name Story, not Caroline. But I know what it can be like to have an odd name and Jonah is used to calling her Caroline. I won't rock the boat on this one. Her name will be Caroline Story Watson. I think that's the first time I've typed it all out like that.
Josh picked Caroline and I gave him a hard time, but I think he knew I liked it from the beginning. It seems simple and clean, and I'd like her to create her own story- you know? I can't think of a lot of characters named Caroline, so it's not associated with anything. It's not overly popular right now, so she won't have a half dozen friends with the same name. She can be herself, and decide who that is.
I know that I've said it before, but having a girl is a kind of terrifying thing to me. Jonah was whole new territory. Boys aren't exactly something I know how to deal with. I've been making it up as I go along, and I suppose it hasn't gone too badly. The unknown wasn't a bad thing. There weren't any expectations to be met.
But a girl... Girls are emotional and seem so much more complicated to deal with as they get older. They need support and understanding- but they don't understand the power they can have. I want to give that to her- an understanding of how capable and powerful she can be.
Maybe I should have decided to name her Supergirl?
Instead I am giving her a name that she can define for herself. Nothing to wild. Something a shade unassuming that she can assume for her own. One day she can tell me the story of herself.