Just Suppose or Juxtapose

Antimatter," by Russell Edson from The Tunnel (Field Translations Series).

Antimatter
On the other side of a mirror there's an inverse world, where the in-
sane go sane; where bones climb out of the earth and recede to the first
slime of love.

And in the evening the sun is just rising.

Lovers cry because they are a day younger, and soon childhood robs
them of their pleasure.

In such a world there is much sadness which, of course, is joy...


I got this poem from Writer's Almanac today. I'm not sure why I like it, but it seems like these things already exist- particularly the sadness which is really joy. Opposites seem circular- like they are so far apart that they somehow meet and merge.
In Wally Lamb's book (the name of Which I have forgotten- ask Tara, I gave it to her for Christmas a while back... it's about twins and about accepting what life has given you) he says- "God is found inthe roundness of things." and I think that's true. Endings are all really beginnings and sadness can really be joy. It's only in books and movies that there can be a happily-ever-after, or a true tragedy. In the real world there isn't an end or a beginning to anything- it is all one long story- like one great tide.

Life is a haptic monster- familiar, yet unfamiliar; dear, yet grotesque; we cling to it, though it can be cruel.

My story began with my grandmother's story and hers began with her grandmother's, and mine will only end if nothing I ever do ever impacts anyone in any way.

Okay- maybe a little too deep today...
Our Christmas tree went up last night, and Josh and I ate Birthday cake and shopped for a bookshelf. I love my husband.

By the way, there is an opossum (do you use AN for words where the vowel at the beginning of the word is actually silent?) living in our backyard. It freaked me out the other night. I pulled into the driveway and it was just sitting there starting at me...Those things are truly ugly.

Chara

Freestyle crochet

This is Goldie- our office baby- and she is laying on a blanket that my boss made. Karen does Freestyle Chrochet where you just chrochet and don't pattern things. Then you just piece it all together to make a blanket that isn't square or anything- usually it's sort of round. I think this is really cool and I want to learn how to do it.

Do you remember when?

These are pictures of my favorite friends as a child. Poochie was even on my sleeping bag! Plus I was in the popples reading group! We were the really good readers! (Of course! Cause with a name like Popples- how could you not be cool?)

It's Wednesday... the day before thursday.

Well, I am at work and I don't want to be here anymore. I am tired and I want a nap. At least I only get tired of work at 1/2 an hour before time to quit.

This picture is for Laura. It reminds me of the picture that Kate took of you and John...

By the way- a friend of mine called from NY today and told me that she wanted me to come up there in April to do a ladies day at her church. They even set a date and checked on plane tickets! Yay!

Chara

The Monday after...

Well, I have to say that I am pleased with the way the weekend went. My wombmate called me as I was leaving work on Friday and told me she was coming in to visit. It was much better having her here because I was able to focus less of my attention on what i was so nervous about and more on her, getting ready, and helping my throat.
I woke up on Saturday and my throat felt like it was going to five out before I got the opportunity to finish everything. It did not, however, abandon me until last night.

As I said before I was incredibly nervous (I think I almost made myself sick last Friday) but once I go up there I was fine. Everything I had planned worked quite well and I feel like I communicated what I wanted to. I did realize that I had cut out a lot of stuff I could have left in (my timing was off quite a bit) and spontaneously added some stuff that will stay.
I taped the whole thing, so hopefully I will be able to put some of it on here eventually. If anyone wants a copy you shouldlet me know and I can burn you one.

Thanks to everyone who sent me encouraging thoughts and let me know that they were thinking of me (Millie!)

Chara

nerves

It is the day before my performance. I started feeling sick yesterday- just a tickle in my throat. Today I feel nauseous and there is a brush fire in my throat.

Plus I am nervous.
I have been working on all this for quite a while, but I still feel like the end is weak and I'm not sure I'll do a good job.
urgh.

Chara

have you seen this?

http://watsonlist.blogspot.com/ is a new blog that Josh and I are doing together. Basically it is our Christmas lists online.

However, I was thinking about other lists we could make...
here are some ideas.

1. A list of things you can make out of marshmellows.
2. A list of people whose names seem to characterize them.
3. A list of things one should never try to cook over a campfire.
4. A list of names you should never give your children. (*hem!* Bulah Blue *hem*)
5. A list of things that could kill you that you might never expect.
6. A list of lists that would have "acorn" as the #1 answer.
7. A list of bumperstickers you could put on Warren Greene's car to confuse him (see www.johnandlaurawilson.blogspot.com)

Any other ideas for a blog of strange lists?

Chara